The day i can no longer feel, I cease to be human.

Night Stalker

2005-10-08T20:45:00.000+08:00

The night stalker is here
Dont let him get into your bed
For wad he relish is your fear
Salvage the moment before you're dead

Favour from all of you..can ya'll PLEASE(if i could get on my knees i would but you know me..i WONT) stop tagging me those 7 things about me thingy...cause we all pretty darn well know i'm so not gonna do it. And the poem..it's something i thought you guys would like to think about in a weird perpective it's just about life and people around you.(quoted from Alex and Steph)

Speaking of people...this month is absolutely horrendous well aside from the fasting month everthing else is so BLEAH!!! I'm telling you..it's miniature IMH..i'm supposedly to go Malaysia (how fun! *yawns*) with my cousins...whatever happen to that plan...it was those kinda scrap-parents-field trip *grins* dont think it's in any progress...so erm to all my cousins out there...YOU'RE SUPPOSE TO SAVE ME!

I think by the end of the hols i'm gonna be like a vocab-freak...i've lost count on how many books i've read..and shan't go further about them..ironically they're suppose to be a bore but turning out to be my saviours instead..*rolls eyes*

I did have a few good days...like mmm...when i went back to sec sch..it was pretty alright seeing all those teachers again..same old faces but more conversational..cause it was no long a student-teacher conversation...

Oh yeah...and my bestie's party on 2nd oct was fab tho she got emo in front of almost everyone it was still a hit...i got her this super cute and elegant and so princessy box..and it matched what she was wearing that day..a PRINCESS! oh and earlier in the day went to see my favourite doink (excuse the term) the doink taught me taitee..it's either im a bad learner or he/she is a bad teacher. (note the gender discretion) i've learned not to go mini shopping with the doink..so impatient tsk tsk...

Well then..i guess this is it..have been thinking to stop blogging..thinking..not yet affirmative..but like who cares..to all my poly mates...enjoy your hols! and to the poor o level students and those having final year exams...study hard and cheer up!!

Revenge is sweet. Sweeter than tiramisu.

We're Just Ordinary People

2005-09-29T16:48:00.000+08:00

Okay so i lied...I did'nt update...I passed everything..no big fucking deal..not as if i scored all As so heck it.

Ordinary day..boring life..."fantastic" enviroment. Just cant wait for sem 2..no i'm not crazy..i'm perfectly sane..just feeling a lil dissociated..anyone in my position would have gone perpetually mad..

Okay as promised...those people who are a HUGE fan of man utd...check out my bestie's blog.. http://www.thisisoldtrafford.blogspot.com its fantastic..trust me..filled with things you wouldnt know about..plus man utd stories...check it out yeah...this is all for now...ciaoz..

It Takes Three To Tango

2005-09-22T22:43:00.000+08:00

All that I'm feeling these days is BOREDOM not my fault
This is what i hate about holidays. No doubt im going out almost everyday...NOT..but still its just no fun anymore. Plus the fact that Singapore is soo small theres like nowhere to go. You felt as if you've rounded every corner.

I'm just waiting for that SATURDAY...then i'll know whether i need to study or not hopefully not. I'm talking about THE semestral exams results. Til then i wont blog i guess. there's nothing to blog.

Oh and Diana..dont be such a shoe freak..honestly shoes doesnt make you happy..*sticks tongue out at Diana* now swensens makes everybody happy..*grins* ciaoz...

Sinful Dreams

2005-09-12T20:31:00.000+08:00

Sinful dreams
Piercing scream
I'll tear your paper heart
I'll watch it bleed

Three victimized
Wrapped around my finger
Played along to every move
Dumped on the shore of hell

Prowling for the fourth
I've got it in hand
One question..
Will this paper heart be torn as well?

Howdy people!! it's been more than 2 weeks since i blogged...but who cares EXAMS ARE OVER!! *jumps in joy* Study week was a major disaster..its like you wanna study but nothing seems to be going into your head...The papers were all okay except M.E.B which i shall not delve into it..

In the midst of it all I went to watch RED EYE...the movie didnt suck but it was just too fast..I felt like I just settled down in my seat getting comfy and WHAM! its over..oh well so much for that..but it was all good was with the one person i could relax well with...

Moving on...lets talk about the after EXAMS...after the last paper went over to a friend's house and played badminton...basically just tried to have as much fun as possible...

Yesterday was a rather better day..went to Jurong Point with mummy dearest...and yes i travelled ALL THE WAY from hougang to jurong but who cares....got myself a new wallet been wanting to buy it...wordings on it were nice "DO I LOOK LIKE A FREAKING PEOPLE PERSON" you guys know I am..*smiles* after which mom and me went to eat..walked around JP..yada yada...and so on..

TODAY...was a normal day...went to paragon with my bro and mom...bro wanted to extend his M1 plan and get a new phone..the moto razr or whatever afterwhich we walked aroun..im telling you town is so boring..the same thing over and over again oh well...thats all for today i guess...Happy holidays!! *grins*

your paper heart is one which i would never touch yet do anything...

Back for now..

2005-08-27T20:55:00.000+08:00

I know I know..my blog has been dead for like what..2 weeks? aint my fault! busy studying and etc..well first of all during the two weeks pretty much the same school study school study nothing much interesting to delve in. just that my organic chemistry is turning disasterous. only i know the fear...*smiles*

Had a relatively productive day today..went to aishy house today together with fizzy and assy..andboy was it a crap marathon..we ended up studying quite alot tho..but the humour was totally awesome! we joked about shit(Input=Output eh? i think not!!)..lesbianism..fizzy took a video of me n aishy doing some lesbianism act well actually she just hugged me..nut knowing fizzy the "deprived kid" everything is lesbianism to him..sheesh..

Study week has started..but its only namesake study week..we have to go back every single god damn day except friday..actualy i find it good not as if i have much discipline to study myself anyway *grins*

Sorry guys..no more poems til AFTER semestral exams..and i think til will be my last post til semestral exams are over...coz i know i definately wont have time...til then be good people! miss you guys F.A.F.A and i especially miss my lemon!!!!! *grins*

Every new day brings a doubt to the world...think about it...

Macushla...

2005-08-10T22:41:00.000+08:00

It's A Beautiful Day....

go figure... *smiles*

In My World I'd Take Him Out For Tea..

2005-08-06T14:50:00.000+08:00

NO..im not getting bored of blogging..NO..i did not forget to blog..and NO..its not that i'm lazy...its just that NOTHING interesting is happening..therfore this post shall be short and sweet.

The whole has been like study study study..lecture lecture TUTORIALS tutorials..routined. Same people...same situation Same shit..haha..BUT...

yesterday was FUN! TP had some event called CCN day..where all the year 1s would set up stalling selling whatever and hte profit they make would go into this fund for those students who need money in a crisis. so MY class did something related with food..Marshmallow coated with chocolate and some other toppings. It was fun coating and making the choc melt. I was only there til about 2.30 after which I went to the...

ESPLANADE..yep you heard me right..the esplanade..why of all places? because i wanted to go somewhere peaceful and calm with my friend for once...instead of noisy malls..its not that i hate noisy malls..i love them but just somehting for change. Esplanade turned to be a miniature circus..which i shant explain why...and i wanna watch PETER PAN THE MUSICAL!! and im not weird ok..alot of people like to watch musicals... anyways the esplanade was fantastic i could just sit there all day long watching the boat going back and forth carrying tourists...just awesome..and thanks to my dear friend who made it even better *grins*

okay thats it..till the next post..which i will include my new poem...tata all...have a nice weekend!

If You Only Knew..

2005-07-30T23:15:00.000+08:00

It was not so long ago
when I thought I'd never meet someone like you.
Wrong was I, thinking I'm in control
Believing I'd never fall.

All my life I thought no one would
melt a heart like mine, a heart so cold,
a heart hardened by the past,
protected by shields so vast.

Slowly I was falling
without even knowing.
Only to find out too late
I have no choice but to accept my fate.

I could dream, I suppose
forever, I could hope
there will never be any 'us',
that's our destiny so I wake up to reality.

I lied when I said
I didn't love you,
that my feelings for you
are through.

I lied
not because I wanted to
but because I love you
and I still do.

I wouldn't do a thing to hurt you
but I just have to let go.
I can't hold on much longer
'coz for us there's no forever.

There's nothing wrong with me. I'll get back to my sinsiter poems soon. Had a rough week. Studying and all. I almost got an A for the subject I used to hate. Yay i guess. My feelings are paralyzed. I know I'm doing something wrong..something that will make me ponder for days..something that eventually will make me hurt..but you know what..WHO IN THE GOD DAMN WORLD CARES right? sigh..If only _________...

Endless days..i ponder how to kill your heart the way you did mine...

Deal It Lose It..

2005-07-27T22:12:00.000+08:00

I'M UTTERLY AND FREAKINGLY CONFUSED! PERIOD.

Help me someone?

So Little Time..

2005-07-25T21:02:00.000+08:00

It's an ordinary day.
Knock one out and then fall asleep,
It's sad but true,
I'd rather be with you

Don't you forget about me,
When you're a celebrity,
It will be only you and me
Before too long.

So little time so much to do,
I wanna spend my days with you,
So little time so much to do,
I'd like to spend one day with you,

And if that day is not enough,
Maybe we can stay in touch,
But i'm not making plans for tomorrow,
For tomorrow never comes.

No its not sappy...something for a change dont you think..been thinking of someone which i shall not say who..Happy schooling and working all..

I've love to see a little more of you

Overload

2005-07-24T20:40:00.000+08:00

never thought i would write
these lines to you
did you?

proud and sagacious
in your ancient, trying way
surely i was

your disciple
your ladyd
enying all pursuits

but perfection
always taunting, out of reach
you played your distance

to perfection
i saw who you were
we are one and the same

dark and evil
bright and loving
you know

i have chosen my path
i denied your name
denied the taste of blood

the lust of pain
i turned another way
ironic, who was once your lady

yours never again.

Woahhh never knew my day would turn out great...its been ages since I actually ENJOYED my sunday..seriously speaking. As I mentioned in my previous post I had this amazing race which turn out GREAT! 3 words to decribe it..Fun Tiring Leg-breaking...but it was all good..I was in the company of fabulous people. The starting of the day turned out bad cause i woke up some sort late and I had to rush big time..haha..managed tho..oh well..it was raining after the race ended..thank god it rained only AFTER the race ended..if not i couldnt have imagined what I would have done..and bukit gombak is a troublesome place..so many twist and turns..makes people's life difficult..oh well..

After that i went to Jurong Point..yep thats right same ol JP with my favourite person now..muahahaha...shant say who..*zips mouth* Better left unsaid..it was fun..drank in swensens and went around the mall about a million times...I was abused in the mall I think i'm gonna go lodge a complain to the police...sheesh *grins* After that we got bored of the mall and went to some blocks nearby..i'm telling you the place needs a facelift..so tree-ish..seriously..hahaa..but i had fun...ALOTTA FUN..*smiles* thanks to that idiot..

Luckily tomorrow no school so i can just sit back and relax my aching leg...pity those who have school EARLY in the morning *points and laugh* and just for the record..to my dear friend (i dont know if the person reads this) I AM NOT A SEX FREAK...!!

That's it i guess..my so happening life..haha..tata all..Have a good week ahead...

Fizzy: Thanks for being a fan of my blog..so honoured..keke..
Alex: Now you are disappearing on me! Mean arse..

cry out to me in your depths you kill, you murder, you lie.

Thou Heart Is Despicable

2005-07-23T21:38:00.000+08:00

Every time I think of you
I get a shot right through into a bolt of blue
It's no problem of mine but it's a problem I find
Living a life that I can't leave behind
There's no sense in telling me
The wisdom of a fool won't set you free
But that's the way that it goes
And it's what nobody knows
And every day my confusion grows
Every time I see you falling
I get down on my knees and pray
I'm waiting for that final moment
You'll say the words that I can't say

I feel fine and I feel goodI feel like I never should
Whenever I get this way, I just don’t know what to say
Why can't we be ourselves like we were yesterday
I'm not sure what this could mean
I don't think you're what you seem
I do admit to myself
That if I hurt someone else
Then we'd never see just what we're meant to be
Every time I see you falling
I get down on my knees and pray
I'm waiting for that final moment
You'll say the words that I can't say

We've seen our share of ups and downs
Oh how quickly life can turn around
In an instant
It feels so good to reunite
Within yourself and within your mind
Let's find peace there

Had a normal weekend-ish day..went out with my parents and had some indian food..then shopping..normal routine some sort..missing my bro tho..those were days when 4 of us went out together..sigh..times have changed..

There's this certain friend of mine who has just vanished into thin and I thought that person cared about me. (Note to self: Dont give 2 fucks to anyone these days) The only person I actually care about doesnt know it. Better left unsaid. Tho we have done many things to together I dont want the person to misjudge anything. Last thing I need is a misunderstanding.

Tomorrow's gonna be a heck of a day..Some amazing race thingy going on in JURONG of all places. The opposite world. Have a good weekend all.

JJ: Happy BELATED birthday! *hugs* and i still miss you..
Fizzy: Thanks for reading my whole blog..muahahaha...

For he who suffers justifies the word pleasure..for he who is vicious earns self-respect..

Enigmatic

2005-07-22T23:50:00.000+08:00

Just when I thought I understood
You crashed my mind
Pouring deep uncertainty into it
Where's the soul I once knew?
Where has it gone?
To the underworld?
To its own cryptic mirage?
Why do I keep calling for it

When I know it wont summon back..

You were just a mere accquaintance..
Mere follower..
Mere fiend..
Mere saviour..

So how come it aint no longer mere?

No friends..i'm not depressed..i'm not heart broken...i'm not hurt...im just FUCKING confused. I've lost 2 of my favourite people. nothing happen. no quarrels no shit no nothing. Just lost them. Good nights all.

I loved you as friend..now i lay on my bed wondering..was that where it stopped?

Too late...

2005-07-18T21:28:00.000+08:00

I came to you too late
a million times or more
but I never said a word to you
afraid you'd hate me even more
But maybe you could have loved meif not for crimes that I had done
such is my punishment...t
o never know love..
forever all alone

If only you knew..
How I adored you..
Never had the guts to show
Weak creature i am..
Nevertheless i was a coward..
A sucker for your words..

If only you knew..
I love looking at you
in the corner of my eyes...
watch you smile..
watch you frown..
and watch you die.

School has started again..heck it..enjoy the poem..

if you only knew the person in front of you showed a facade just by being your friend..

MINDHUNTERS

2005-07-14T21:31:00.000+08:00

The whole world is my enemy - and I'm a walking target
Two times the devil with all the significance
Dragged and raped for the love of a mob
I can't stay - because I can't be stopped

Eat motherfuckers alive who cross us
I know you're all tired of the same ol' bosses
Let me tell you how it's gonna be
I'm gonna kill anyone who steps up in front of me

Giving in to what has got me
Feeling claustrophobic, scarred
Severed me from all emotion
Life is just too fucking hard
SNAP! Your face was all it took
Cuz this need ain't doin' me no good
Fall on my face, but can't you see?
This fucking life is KILLING ME!

Somebody give me some light
And not punch it in the dark S
omebody show me the end
And I try to push to start
I'm trying to figure out
A better way, a better answer
But I keep finding all the problems I've been looking after
You can't wander through the world
With nothing but a smile
I'll take your tongue for words
And use it to instill denial

Had a fabulous day today...hear that sera FABULOUS...lets see..went to watch MINDHUNTERS..it was kinda good..except the person i went to watch it with, freaked the fuck outta me during a certain scene..and in return I got shocked and kinda like bumped into the person beside me which he in return gave a scowl..geez..sue me WONT you..asshole..*grins* adn the awesome part was I dropped my phone in the theatre but didnt know where...being a smart ass I used my feet (took off the slipper) to find for it and guess what I went over the guy's feet beside me..he gave me a sidelong glance and I just sorta apologised and focus on the movie...thats what you get if you sit in the middle of the darn row..sigh..

Ate ice cream in swensens today..yummy yum yum...!! haha..after which i hung around PS and left round 7 i think..oh well short time but i certainly enjoyed myself..my friend was awesome to bully..was like pulling his hair and all..oh and sera darling we found a stuff toy looking like you..but i dont think you would wanna know what it is *smiles sweetly*

Alright til the next post which will be verryyy soon...I am a WOMAN OF MY WORDS..well technically I am a woman..so whatever..cya all..

Never shall the wrath be gone-Your fucking face is all that summons it....

People = Shit

2005-07-12T21:57:00.000+08:00

How does it feel to be locked inside another dream
That never had a chance of being realized?
What the fuck are you lookin' at?
I'll tell you what you're lookin' at
Everyone you ever fuckin' laughed at

Look in my eyes for the answers - typical I can feel it underneath like a miracle
Everbody in the world needs more than
Lies and consequences to power them
Once again,it's me and no one else
I can't remember if there was a someone else
It's not mine,it's not fair,it's outta my hands
And it's shaking - you'll never take me

Your impossible ego fuck is like a
Megalomaniacal tab on my tonque
Youu fuckin' touch me I will rip you apart
I'll reach in and take a bite out of that
Shit you call a heart...

Sigggghh...beautiful lyrics..dont ya think so? and no i dont think people = shit...just felt like putting it so..went to school today..total waste of time...if I only knew it was such, I'd be happily sleeping in my bed..curse them..but still it wasnt all THAT bad..had a nice meal with my darlings..and thank god i dont need to go school for the rest of the week unlike some people...*points and laugh* i'm not mean..*smiles innocently*

My weekend went horribly..first of all my uncle passed away right in front of my eyes..tragic man..i was in total shock..couldnt speak..i had trouble calling people too..sigh..
Secondly I lost my favourite charm bracelet...*sob sob* Lastly I misplaced my phone..but i still got it back...maybe the saying "Bad things come in threes.." is true afterall..but you all know me..i dont give 2 fucks..*grins*

I'm gonna be like totally slacking tomorrow..wee! and thursday gonna watch movie..hopefully it still stays..curse jurong point gv for not showing Mindhunters...darn place...oh and yeah i'm falling in love with the theatre there..totally awesome..same with the new lido..go check it out guys..and do watch the island...the plot seems interesting..but then again thats exactly the same idea i had for War of the Worlds..and it sucked..not to the core..just the ending sucked..dont know how it raked in so much money...weird people..

alrighty..i'll be back soon oh and dhost dont you EVER dare check up on me while having an ulterior motive cause i always know..you can never hide things for me..and for the rest sorry if i kinda deleted your tags..it was ermm unintentional? yeah thats the word..*smiles* keep smiling people!

Kill you - fuck you - I will never be you....

Term Testssss.......

2005-07-07T15:20:00.000+08:00

She sits in her corner
Singing herself to sleep
Wrapped in all of the promises
That no one seems to keep

She no longer cries to herself
No tears left to wash away
Just diaries of empty pages
Feelings gone astray

Walking through life unnoticed
Knowing that no one cares
Too consumed in their masquerade
No one sees her there

Howdy everyone! Been sooo busy lately studying that I ALMOST forgot about my blog..oh well lets get it started...!

Let's see..I had an interesting week..interesting in the sense that I've been studying like fuck.. (= hope it pays off..*prays* well well...so far most of my papers are done...just left with M.E.B which is as sickening as all the subjects..organic chem paper disappointed me today..oh well..better luck next time faz..

Went to watch war of the worlds yesterday with the most weirdest creature ever smacked into the surface of this earth..reason is....you wanna see a clown hold in smoke in the mouth you got your man..peculiar human isnt he..haha..oh well..i did have fun..dont know if it was vice versa..but kinda took off all stress in this week even if the person didnt know it in addition we sat down and talked..its been ages since I've actually done that..believe me..i emphasis on the word AGES..really helped me a hell lot..thanks pig!! oh and dhost..you were wrong the movie wasnt all THAT bad..depends on who you watch it with *winks*

I'm dreading sunday...dumb school decided to join in the charity walk or something..i wouldn't mind if it was a weekday..but gawd on a WEEKEND? sunday morning to top it all off...sigh...oh well..time i get some exercise as SOME PEOPLE say...the nerve of them..*glares*

alrighty mates i'll be updating real soon..for now..time to sit back and relax before i start studying again..JJ still miss you...and Alex dont be a S.O.B..Steph honey i aint difficult..you just perceive wrongly..later people...*waves*

Burning down lies...Burning my dreams..

Exhausted...[New Number!!!]

2005-06-24T21:14:00.000+08:00

I think from now onwards NOBODY should ever ask me to update every day or alternate days cause I have decide (maybe) to update every Friday..its like summary of the week...easier and less time consuming....

So far life is good and bad...good part is I'm coping well (except for organic chem) passing MOST of my quizzes..school is great no more fucked up hypocrites for now that is..people are actually gaining my respect but I'm still not sure about some of them..its like straight in the face kinda thing when they dont say something they dont mean...WHATEVER!!! .

Finally the weekend..I can catch up on my sleep...and my studies *mutters* term test is in approximately 2 weeks with alot of unsettled matters with the books....sigh...

I got a new number!!!!!!!!!!! yay! finally I have a darn line...so people just msg me in msn or my old number and ask for my new number ok? I wont put it here cause god knows who reads these darn things..hahaha...

Overall my day has been swell..met up with a few people whom I never thought i would see them again at the rate of contact..oh well..nothing new i guess...sometimes people are just
so aberrant...seriously..one minute they are all gooey sweet to you next minute you'll be like something which just dropped off the earth's existence to them...shEEsh and i call them my friends...pity..

JJ: erm keep including me in your blog ok? *grins*...and i still miss you...haha...you scary pHreaK you..!

Stephie: meet him/her today..didn't talk much..but i quote from my nick again "I Dont Fucking Care No more"..understood? haha..*winks*

Kumar: Fren i loved helping out with your blog please do ask me anything for help..miss you!

And I'm done with my dedication...i'll end this post with a small quote..tata~!

Dark is the soul which know itself not
-Faz

Life

2005-06-16T20:09:00.000+08:00

Life is
Pain
Life is
Sorrow
Life is
Wasted on those like me

Life is
Anger
Life is
Hatred
Life is
pushing us to kill ourselves

Life is
Love
Life is
Lust
Life is
never knowing either as one

Life is
Cruel
Life is
Hard
Life is
a never ending hell from which no escape
-Faz

Beautiful aint it? Something which might actually be true for some people..god knows who but it ain't me..so hmm havent really blog for a week i think...its not laziness just couldnt bring myself up to blogging...not as if my life is really happening...some disappointing stuffs only..nothing to be elaborated on..i dont feel the need to tlak about it..moving on...

Been getting back my quizez not too bad..satisfactory..but not too good either..i screwed my Organic Chem quiz today..thats for sure..been leaving me with a heavy heart the whole day..sheesh such a small quiz with a heavy impact...sigh...

JJ:i promise i'll write this part to you didnt I just a lil overdue..my apologies...havent being seeing you online..or maybe its I didnt check my msn window..oh well..do pop by..miss you..

Alex: steph and stephiee are 2 god damn different person understand arsE? haha..

Stephiee: i've decided to leave the matter alone..from now onwards he/she will decide to contact me or not..i cant stand it anymore *smiles*

Basically thats it..i'm really looking forward to the weekends so i can study at my own pace without having my brain turn to mush..haha..keep checking on my poems ya'll it'll be updated every week hopefully..take care...tata!

Ankle

2005-06-08T20:29:00.000+08:00

My ankle is seriously killing me...hurts like a knife stabbed to it..*screams* alright enough of drama..*laughs*..

My weekend was a non-exciting and simply dreadful..basically i just stayed home (with the exception of going NTUC to buy chocolates*yum*) doing nothing and just facing my notes and doing tutorial..what a drag..hence there wasnt any posts during the weekends..(understand alex? you pig you..! *glares*)

TODAY was a LONG tiring day even though school was only from 12-1pm i had after school adventures which I shall not delve into...*grins*

Basically life at school is monotonous wth the exception of my friends nothin interesting is happening...bleah...
Stephie's Update: He/She Progressing Slowly but minor attempts has been made -end-

I think i'm just gonna hit the sack in an hour...*eyelids dropping* take care peeps..and dhost you owe a movie date (you pay of course DUH!)

ToastMasters

2005-06-03T23:43:00.000+08:00

Sometimes things around you dont happen to be real..just a mirage they would say..same goes for feelings i guess..you dont actually show the true feelings til the end and then you find out its too late..sigh..moving on..

Had a long day today..left school around 9.45p.m! Freak man..all thanks to my friend..we went for some club meeting called "ToastMasters" it started pretty boring..and then when it was games time it liven up. We played some sort of charade and my friend SABO me to be the one acting out the charade..so embarassing but nvm just make me skin thick...even worse was i had to act out the phrase "Star Wars"..so from this experience people out there know never EVER ask me to act it out coz i simply suck...

Basically life so far has been not bad but not all that great either..some improvements were made..but i still think more can be done *not telling about wad* LOL....hope everyhting would go well and life would be back to normal again..

One more thing...people if you have something to say just say it to the person's face..somehow its much more satisfying once its out..so yeah..despite future consequences everything will fall back in place eventually...

Tata...and twinny..i love you too..! haha..

Headache

2005-06-01T22:20:00.000+08:00

Another day..another headache...yesterday i was sooooo busy doing my Mass and Energy Balance tutorial that i forgot to eat dinner..i'm like wondering hows that even possible...oh well..moving on..today was kinda slack..had school for 4 hours only...kinda fun tho..first 3 hours i had Organice chem..simple sec sch chem experiments..but it was the group effort that was fun..i spoke to people in my class which i have NEVER spoken to before..keke..not that i'm shy..they're just unapproachable..go figure haha..

Went to SP (Sigapore poly) today...and oh boy was i lost..thank god i had to meet my good friend sahar if not i dont know where i'll end up...cute fella with a wrong coloured eye lens..freaky..haha..had a good time..hope i see him again soon. After meeting him i went to meet my sec sch fren and off we went back to sec sch to collect O lvl cert..(i dot even know why i bother) when i reached school it was raining HEAVILY..i was freaking wet..and i lost one my fav earrings!!! *pouts* unlucky day man..sigh moving on...

Lets see..for stephie's sake..the person i mentioned in the previous post shall remain annonymous..so shuf up ok stephie? *grins* he/she still has been kinda drfiting but well what to do..we cant always get what we want...but i really do miss him/her..i wonder if he/she knows.......

As you can see my life is not exciting enough..(nerds life waddya expect) and alex..stop calling in the middle of my lectures! *glares* for that i shall off my hp from now! nuisance you know...get a life..!*smiles*

Love life empty...Normal life filled with studies...no controversy..haha..thats what i need i guess..just hang with ma girlfrens...Til the next post..tata all!

p.s JJ aka lanasah...i miss you and i'll meet you one day i promise *grins*

Freaks

2005-05-30T22:25:00.000+08:00

Alright..i'm gonna officially gonna start blogging again...provided i have the time...all thanks to alex..(take a bow alex) keke..and no thanks to my dhost...surajie..good fer nothing pig..

School has just started...and tutorials are simply fun..i know i know im weird..who in the WORLD likes tutorial but hey..like i vowed..im turning into a nerd (adjusts thick framed glasses).

Somethings have changed..i have this certain friend who no longer bothers to like aknowledge me..weird..maybe i did or said something...*ponders* hope things can go back to normal between us...

My class is totally what i DIDNT expect...1/4 GIRLS..the MINORITY..sigh..which isnt fun..come to think of it..3/4 of my course are guys..sheesh..i couldnt have picked a better course...haha..

Alrighty back to my tutorials..my blog is still under renovation so no weird tags idotic freaks! u got that alex! *glares* and dhost..quickly load ur darn comp..sheesh throw out the window will you..

Til the next post..*smiles*

cONstantiNE...!!

2005-02-08T22:26:00.000+08:00

woohoo...kk i got back from kl like on sunday night itself..round 10 i tink...it was aight kinda boring no sigh seeing no shit oh well..de wedding was fucking grand..dats for sure...nvm de meal was great...so its all good for me...de ride back was fab..i slept all de way..*laughs*

ok today me my bro n his fren went to watch constantine...the only other time such activity occurred...was when we went to watch toy story..de first one..dats like YEARS back...it was aight...gross movie..aint that scary thrilling...3 out of 5..worth de money...met alot of nonsense ppl dat i din expect to meet..oh well singapore is small...first time i sat in the theatre without tidbits *pouts*...seriously guys go catch it..worth it...was full house man..*thumbs up*

after dat came back and saw my couz from malaysia here at home..chit chat for awhile then they left...kinda miss them been a long time since i saw them...okay..im off for dinna...cya everyone!

i'm tIreDdDd....

2005-02-04T21:39:00.000+08:00

i'm tireedddddddd...........had a tiring day...

i woke up round 11.30 then meet ma wonderful fren round 12.50 and we went SP (singapore poly)
this is the first time i felt bored in poly...can u believe dat? its soo dreary and boring. there werent much tours there..pretty much suck..cept for the pizza there...hehe...met up wif 2 other frenz we chit chat and hugged and we left sp round 5!

after which i went to meet this group of frenz..then we played pool..was aight..it was ma first time being to queensway poll thingy..i swear to god i thought that place was closed...it looked like it wsa gonna be demolished soon...sheesh imagine de condition man...hahaha..anyways had fun tho...so by the time i left was about 7.30 i tink...and now i juz reached home half hr ago...pretty much an exciting day...

tmr im going KL...haiz most prolly come back on sun n mon...gonna miss u peeps...wahahaha so drama 2 days also miss so much..lol

oh well im tired..gonna chill out now...SP sucks for sure...boring atmosphre and not happening people..bleah...

heRe i am aGaiN...

2005-02-02T17:46:00.000+08:00

ok the reason i havent blog for a lonnnnnnng time is bcoz im sick...plus im bloody irritated with de comp. sorry guys that i din accept ur comments...i kinda deleted it all coz i THINK its about time i stop blogging..haiz...

my fever is getting worse...feel like dying..plus i cant contact my frenz much with msn down and all...its just horrible..plus i cant check my mail..so alex im sory for nt replying yea... *smiles* basically i've been rotting at home...flipping the channels watching repeats of any soap opera..or bewitched...kinda pathethic life..plus de medicine tastes DISGUSTING...even disgusting is juz a minor...*shudders*

best of all..despite my sickness my parents are still full speed ahead with de plan of going KL for my supposedly cousin's wedding...its only my dad's side..how am i suppose to know who they r...grrRrr....it better be worth it...just hope my lens come in time before we set off or else i'll be a blind rat....

to all my peeps out there..i miss you guys...and dont worry..getting my lappy soon...i hope...

oh well..im signing of now..til tmr..ciaoz..~

NP rocks/sucks?

2005-01-22T20:39:00.000+08:00

well well well...today was fab!! tiring but faaaaabbbb!!!!!!!!

wahha..woke up at 9.30 today..den went to meet one of ma darlingz..been quite some time...oh well..was fun....

then then..round 2 i met ma darling galfren at clementi station and we went to NP open hse...not bad..was quite good..~ we went in de convention centre antd i met ma darling dost!! wahahha....he's soooo short!! lol...was fun tho...we hang around..and then went around looking out for the courses..even tho im still nt sure wad i want to take yet..haiz nth appeals to me...oh well...we were messing around and ma fren was sorta in charge of explaining stuff den den he smacked me wif some pprs and got scolded by his lecturer or sth!! major embarassment dost! lol

but it was all good at least u got a huggie dost! well sorta *grins*

after dat me n ma galfern went for some facility tour where they take u to diff diff buildings...was aight but im quite beat...oh well...cant wait for other polys...~

alrite im off...tiring day man...ciaoz~

woOOhhhhooo~

2005-01-21T22:02:00.000+08:00

first of all.......HAPPY HARI RAYA HAJI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

so hmm it was a fab day aside from de part i woke up at 6+ a.m...geez...im so sleepy now..

well well..my cute lil baby niece came........she was so god dman cute and NOISY...*faints* she kept screaming in ma ear..for heaven's sake din she get tired...well waddya expect from a 6 mth yr old...

so hmm....now im like relaxing..other den dat its been a handful day...cant wait for tmr........gonna meet ma sweetheartS...ahahha *winks..*

oh and dost...you know you love me...hehe...see i mentioned you...cant wait for tmr..im so gonna kick ur bloody ass in np...oh wait it'll be bloody only after i kick t......wahahah...i like dat i like day.... ;)

cheerios guys! keep smiling coz faz love su!

Quote of the day: A life isnt significant unless it has impacts on others

woohoo..i know i haf an impact on u dost! ciaoz!

bAtti~

2005-01-20T21:14:00.000+08:00

weeee...tmr is hari raya haji.....weeeeeee............feeling abit holy-ish....ahhahahah

was fun man...my mum lighted 5 batti (stick incents) and ask me to GO around the house so dat it wld smell nice...but instead i RAN around........woooo hoooooooo~ exercise...hhhahaha
cant wait for tmr..my pwecious baby niec is coming.....weeeeeeeee~

ok today's happenings:

woke up at 1..which is early for me....den my dad came home and asked me type a document...apparently hie clerk got sick or sth so me being good hearted and all typed it...then he was like ' follow me to de office n help me print it out' i was like oOOooookkaayyyy...hahaha nvr been to his office in ma entire life! then i inserted the diskette and guess wad...de dumb comp cldnt open de file...i was like *gasp* i typed de damn doc for like 1 hr..which meant it was a god dman long doc....

my dad went like..oh i have time can u like type it again...i was like wide eyes..den simply nodded and type it...secetary for the day...curse de clerk...oh well...at least din spend my time at home aimlessly flipping de chns....

piercings rock dont u think so JJ? hehe...i wanna get 4 more...*ponders* wonder if its allowed...bad enuff ma hair ish purplish.....

does msn messenger hate me or sth? *thinks* coz i've perpetually tried to sign for abt 2 weeks and yet i cant...its driving me crazy...haiz......i even wrote to those idiots! gRrrrrr~

p.s today this post is dedicated to JJ...wahahhaha...~ im lame~ :D miss u JJ...msn is screwed nt ma fault...

Quote for today: We are countinually faced by great oopurtunities brilliantly disguised as insoluble problems.

thats so god damn true..nice quote...tata!

egoistic beings are my PRIMARY target

2005-01-19T15:07:00.000+08:00

BLOODY HELL!!

who does he think he is...the king of the world!?!?! argh...

this goes out to i certain person i call JD
no.1 DO NOT tell me what to do with her.....
no.2 DO NOT interfere in friendships especially MINE!!
no.3 juz do me a favour n fuck off ...

geez guyz nowadays im juz speechless...more n more getting immatured...plus they start getting bossy telling u this n that is good for u...PUH-LEEZ....y dont u take care of ur imbalanced life before looking out for others...for pete's sake they probably do dat for their own benefit....

okok im nt sexist k! tho this idiot is turning me into one...lame asses...

i miss ma frenz *sob sob* all of them going overseas..well nt exactly all..but technically de ones close to me are..which is considered all *grins* best of all ma closest acquaintance suddenly had this dumb idea in her pea brain to go study overseas too...oh de horror...can it get any worse *pouts*

haiz....oh well look at de bright side faz...at least you'll learn to make new friends...right..? hmm...

you know peeps..comes to think of it...blogging can make u insane..u're like talking to urself...ow well...haha....life's a bliss....

maturity doesnt come wif age.

aRghhh!!

2005-01-19T11:13:00.000+08:00

This is my third and final blog i hope.

3 probs. no.1 all ma frenz are asking me to make it public no.2 i'm hesitant no.3 i'm lazy to modify

geez its only entries which i type crap..ok not EXACTLY crap..more like juz details of my boooring life..and when i say boring i mean boring.....

ok lets see wad did i do tdy...woke up late had late breakfast skipped lunch..tv talked to ma bestie on de fone for half hr...see told u its boring...and now im sititng in front of de damn computer typing this...sheesh...

curse bowen. curse the principal. curse de ppl there.
its juz dat it was horrid day...14 January 2005..went there happily bcoz i thought it wld be a blast to finally hang wif my ex schmates n stuff n wadya know..de principle chased us out for i dont know wad god damn fucking reason...thank god de nite din turn out dat bad...went to haf a drink wif ma fren...sit chit chat...bumped around n home..~ thanks fren~ haahha....

ok hmm now dat i posted this...should i make it public.........*ponders*

p.s suraj sethi...how can i ever forget ma bestest fren in de whole wide world...u better entertain ur ass out when i go np open hse...*evil laughs*